Wednesday, December 31, 2008


2008 has been an eventful year, filled with laughter, disappointment, betrayal, epiphanies, sadness and love. It's been such a rollercoster that I find it difficult to accept the fact that a new year is coming. A new beginning? Hope so. I won't welcome this year with open arms, but I'll still hope for the best, even if hurdles are put in my way. "God don't move the mountains, but give me strength to climb them". This is a truly inspirational statement from the movie "Pursuit of Happyness".

Let 2009 unleash its surprises and disasters, I will take them all in my stride. Let 2009 bring out a different side of me. As the New Year comes, I would still like to make dedications to certain groups of people who walked with me in the year 2008.


Meeting you guys is definately one of the best things in 2008. We laughed, worked and played together. As we move on to our final year, let's stick together and overcome the highest hurdle in our secondary school lives. Each and every one of you means a lot to me. Let's go guys, the final sprint is coming. Let's not be one of the last few to finish it.

HSK People:

Guess I emphasized on the point of how special this group of people to me in my previous posts already. Call me sentimental or anything you want, but I just wanna say: Time may wash away the memories, but I'll do my best to keep them anchored firmly inside my head. If it fails, there's still pictures to help me recollect the memories. It's insane to live in your memories but it's nice thinking about stuff like these once in awhile.

Rugby Dudes:

Hey I really do hope to play side by side with you in our last year. I really did try my best. Hope you still remember me when this whole thing is over. Josephians rule man.... Haha

Monday, December 29, 2008

HSK BBQ Gathering

I've been waiting for this day ever since I came back. I couldn't even sleep well the previous night due to anticipation. Haha. I guess part of me still wishes to live in the Shanghai days. Many people turned up that day, I got to see all those who didn't turn up for the steamboat gathering. It's a pity that Zai Wei, Charles and the others can't make it.

Reached Tampines MRT at 4:10pm. This is what you get when you think that Tampines is just a 30 minute MRT ride away. I was really glad to see them again. The whole group radiates happiness, a feeling which gradually started to turn its back on me since Sec 3. I can't describe how happy I was to see them again. Played basketball with Boon Tiong, Cai Miao and Wei Qi (Hope I spelt her name correctly) while Junjie and the others played with some guys at the CC. Playing with Boon Tiong is just plain funny and I played the whole game with some of Julia's cookies stuck in my throat. Her cookies were delicious! Just not suitable to eat them before playing.

After playing was slacking and stoning. I played cards with Cai Miao, Thomas, Cheng Teng. I got owned. I just put one card down and lost. I also remember laughing at Thomas for his sick mind. Thomas was extra gay that day. The first thing he saw in a newspaper was "Sex and Cheerleaders". I don't know what was that about, but the fact that the first thing Thomas noticed was that, proves alot of things. Lolz. Wen Xin came over later wearing heels. That's gotta hurt considering she came over from Malaysia.

After we reached Sabrina's house it was just hours and hours of retarded things. The girls were sitting on some sort of "merry-go-round" thing in the playground and we just help push the thing . My feet still hurt after all that pushing. The guys got a ride on that too, with Thomas pushing and it resulted in Si Jun falling off the ride. Boon Tiong was covering people's face with charcoal and Thomas was... shaking his butt in the playground. It's a pity I didn't take a video of that. The food was delicious, but I was stuffed full quickly. Spent the rest of the night talking to Jing Rong, Alvin, Cai Miao and Sabrina while we tried to cook the remaining Sotong balls and Chicken Wing. It was around 10 plus already. Was planning to go home myself but Chang Long was nice to offer me a ride in his parents car. Saved me alot of time, but I still reached home at 11:30pm. By then my dad was asleep already.

Strange thing is, after I came back from the BBQ, I got the same familiar feeling like my last day in Shanghai. No I wasn't the first to leave but I just want to stay with them for a little while more, even if it's just sitting there silently. It's too bad that my school reopens on friday while the others start school one week later or in February. It's kinda sad that we're all going to be terribly busy after school reopens. I hope that I still can keep the memories inside my head even as I'm preparing for my O'Levels. They're all special to me, every single one of them.

These songs, are more than just music and lyrics to me. They're pieces of wonderful memories given to me by very special people.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

Beserk Mode

These few days I've been doing my holiday homework and training. I have just completed the report on the "Famous Battles Of The Three Kingdoms". 11 pages with images and hell lots of text. It's strange that I actually enjoy that. Perhaps it takes my mind off certain things. Now I'm moving on to Differentiation worksheet and my Commonwealth Essay. Now I realise my holiday homework is really very little. Not too tough. Looks like I can celebrate Christmas at ease now.

Today is the last training of the year. The Old Boys prepared something special for us. It's one of the most extreme form of Physical Training that I have encountered
since I joined Rugby. It's something like this:

For all those who are SJI students know that between the Raffles Town Club bus stop and Tanglin CC bus stop are two overhead bridges. Our starting point is at Tanglin CC bus stop. We must sprint across the overhead bridge to the RTC bus stop, sprint across to the next bridge opposite Tanglin CC and finally back to the Tanglin CC bus stop. It sounds easy but going up and down the bridge again really stretches your thigh muscles to the limit. We have to complete 6 rounds of that. Tiring, but it feels good after the whole thing is done. At least I pushed myself and I managed to have a consistent timing.

After that was this long water break and this weird physical session which involves piggy-backing your team mates for 100m. It was damn funny and damn fun at the same time. After which there was a match. Sounds serious but it was one of the most fun matches I ever played. There were loads of laughter because of TY's trick and the crude humour of the SJI old boys. I'm really glad they trained with us. I managed to tackle Kiat! Haha. It was an awesome training. I had fun. That's the whole point of it all , I guess.

Random stuff:

I really hope I can go out for dinner with the HSK people. I really miss them loads after the trip. I'll persuade my parents and chiong my homework, whatever it takes to allow me to go.

My muscles hurt like crap after the physical training on monday. It's going to be worse when I wake up tomorrow.

I just had Mega-McSpicy for dinner just now. Hopefully nothing will happen to me when I "sign contract" tomorrow. Haha.

End of Random stuff. Ciao!

Sunday, December 14, 2008



Saturday, December 13, 2008







I watched Twilight today with Peter, Samantha, Hillary , Myles and Bryan. For all those who read the book, the movie may be a little disappointment for you. Oh yeah, I have just discovered that Sneak Preview means the movie without subtitles and stuff. This means that I can watch many movies before the official release date! I'm sure most of you already know what a "sneak preview" is. No poking fun at my late understanding. Haha.

I've started on the Chinese holiday assignment, which is a good thing because I want to finish my homework as quickly as possible. Still got Training and Camp Comm meetings. My holidays are gone....

Friday, December 12, 2008


Amidst my emo-ing and post-shanghai depression, I've been struck by a wave of inspirations. Mike always wanted to see me write poems. I'm not sure whether what I've written in my previous post was a poem or not, but it's still something that struck me one night. It happened tonight too, I was talking to my parents about doughnuts, and suddenly something I said brought about another wave of inspiration to write something. It still needs abit of editing before I can post it up.

These few days I've been working on my chinese project and watching Miyazaki's films at the same time. I watched "Grave Of The Fireflies" the other day and it really made me so sad, to the point where I thought of just holding that someone in my arms and never let go. Weird feeling for a movie like that, but I'm in love with Miyazaki. I'm currently watching "Howl's Moving Castle", and I'll move on to "Spirited Away". What a way to spend my holidays. Haha

Thursday, December 11, 2008


Wednesday, December 10, 2008




选自几米, 《你们我们他们〉

Saturday, November 22, 2008

Flying Off

I was really disappointed with the match today. I played really damn lousy, trying again and again but failing to tackle the man whom I was supposed to mark. Further more, with the season closing in every day, I really need to improve my tackling. However the match was good exposure, I gained alot from the game. Thanks Saints Old Boys.

Alright, moving on. It's only one day away till I fly off to Shanghai for my HSK trip. Well, all the trips that I participated was SJI exchange program which is really quite slack but this is going to be fun and yet tough in a sense that you have to learn really advanced chinese and I think there is lectures the whole day. This is a completely new experience to me. I'm going to enjoy and really take this opportunity to learn because this trip may never cross paths with me again. I hope I can upload some pictures when I'm there. If not I'll post pictures when I get back to Singapore.

Although tomorrow is my last day in Singapore before I fly off for 2 weeks or so, I am still pretty busy. I have packing to do tomorrow morning and ZB Camp Comm meeting in the afternoon. I'm really looking forward to planning such a big event like the training camp in March. It's going to be lots of work and lots of fun.

It's playtime.

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Turn Left, Turn Right

I finally finished watching "Corner With Love". Its strange that I actually got a little emotional at certain scenes and I could actually feel the emotions of Xin Lei and Qin Lang. It wasn't till the extent of crying, although I must admit that one scene almost made that effect. I must say that the show made me think about some things in this stage of my life right now. I think I'm prepared to make that type of commitment. To me, I think it's nice that someone will be like a guardian angel to another, whether he/she knows it or not. Perhaps one day that just might happen to me. Who knows what the heck the future holds?

Enough of that, let's talk about something else. This little challenge my dad set for me today. This is what he said during our journey back from my guitar lesson.

Dad: "Hey want to go swimming?"

Me: "No my muscle pain"

Dad: "That's too bad"

Me: "Why?"

Dad: "I was going to challenge you to see whether you can swim 40 laps of freestyle continuously"

Me: "I can la. Bet how much?"

Dad: "$10"

Well, although now I think $10 is a little less, I took the challenge anyway. So there I was, in the Queenstown swimming complex swimming my 40 laps. It was exhausting to the max. On my 20th lap my muscles were a little tired. From the 30th lap onwards I was swimming with pure willpower. I was thinking "I can't give up. I've already swam so much. Come on, you can taste the success already." It's a funny feeling once you reach that point where your mind is a blank, your eyes couldn't see anything because of the fog in your goggles. you hear absolutely nothing and your muscles are screaming. It's just the sound of the rhythm of your strokes and the words of encouragement in your mind. It took me about 40+ minutes to complete 40 laps, although it's really slow, but I'm glad that I managed to exceed my limit of the usual 10 laps and maximum of 20 laps.

I couldn't even stand straight after I got out of the water and my muscles were aching. At that point of time it felt as if my soul or concsiousness was out of my body and I'm just moving without any reason. However, there was this sense of ecstasy inside me. Never knew that this would be more fun that I had expected. It wasn't about the money anymore, although I'm $10 richer. Afterwards Dad treated me to Mega Mac. Wasn't really delicious considering it's a Big Mac with a couple more beef patty and lettuce.

I was thinking, with the money I can either buy the Stranglehold game, a book, a CD, a nice gift for mom or keeping the money. I feel like choosing the last option because I can't bear to spent the money I've earned from washing my parents' cars, saving up and swimming 40 laps. Perhaps I'll think of a better alternative. Right now I'm fighting to stay awake. But before I go I shall sign off with a really cute picture of myself that I dug out in my computer today.


Wednesday, November 12, 2008


Holidays are self-study days. Until I graduate, this remains to be true. However, I just can't bloody concentrate ever since I saw "Corner With Love" starring Show Luo and Barbie Hsu. I guess I'm getting addicted to Taiwanese Dramas. It's just a damn funny and a romantic show at the same time. I don't really know why suddenly started liking this kind of romance/comedy dramas but I guess dramas like these reflect my "perfect world".

In my perfect world, everything becomes so simple and everyone around me shows erm... positive behaviour. Everyone's happy despite whatever they face. I guess this part is reflected in those kind of shows. Protagonist leading a simple life falls in love with a girl. Maybe that's why I enjoy "Corner With Love". I know I don't really sound myself in this post with all the "sunshine, happiness and romance" stuff, but perhaps each and every one of you who may be reading this have their own little piece of paradise, a place where they feel at ease and truly happy.

Tuesday, November 11, 2008


What I've been doing for the past two days. I've decided that my room needs a serious clean-up. My cupboard stores a 3 year's worth of worksheets, textbooks, workbooks, novels, games, CDs and almost everything you can think of and a whole year's supply of unfiled Sec 3 worksheets. It's a miracle that I can survive this academic year. I need a change for the coming year, and there I was, throwing everything I had onto the floor. categorizing them and putting them back into the right place. It is definately tough work and it makes me damn frustrated to see my room like some garbage dump, but I'm satisfied with the results. Check it out:

Day 1 of Cleanup:

Note: those plastic bags lying in the corners are actually thrash. I have 3 full bags of them. My room looks like a mini-mini Mount Smoky.

Day 2 Cleanup (Morning):

I think it looks better. I have almost everything filed. Notice the third trash bag on the floor. Just when I thought it was over, I met my friend cupboard, who greeted me with a big smile that looks like this:

You may think "Hey it's not THAT BAD", but the bottom part is much much worse than this. The only thing keeping the things at the bottom from falling is well... the cupboard doors. Once you open, they all fall down. I was frustrated, I was angry, I was... speechless. This shit can't be that difficult. It's only a YEAR right?

So I bid farewell to my afternoon of rest and welcomed more hours of cleaning up with a loud curse. This went on for a few more hours. I finished work at about 3pm in the afternoon. Ladies and Gentlemen, the final result.



Nevermind the towel. It was there because I was pespiring like hell when I finished.

Now for my 3-year supply cupboard.



The empty space above is for Sec 4 stuff. Well, it always looks easy as if I just rearraged a few books and files but it's kinda sad that I didn't take a picture of piles of worksheet on the floor. Guess I was too frustrated to do that. Now my room looks better. Fresh start for the approaching New Year and the end of my parents 10-month nag to clean up my room. Hope you all enjoy the pictures. Haha.

Saturday, November 8, 2008


Haven't blogged in a long long time. Guess there wasn't any urge to rant or bitch or what-have-you in this site. Well, I'm not going to delete this blog like my previous ones but I'm going to search for inspirations for my blog posts. I actually have an insipiration for one, but I decided that the issue is too erm... controversial if I actually typed what I feel. However, it's definately not about school or anything related to it. I would just like to post some random things and some updates here.

Random 1:

Well, I was at Popular a few months back looking at some assessment books so that my comprehension would improve. I was browsing a Longman's when I felt someone tap on my back. Turning around, I saw this Aunty and her daughter, who is probably in Primary School in front of me.

" Boy ah, 你有没有用过这牌的 foolscap paper?" *holds up a foolscap pad in front of me*


“ 我只是想问一下用这牌的 foolscap paper 写 Compo 好吗?”

At this point of time, I didn't really know what to say. So I gave her the

-__-" face.

“ 真得有那么重要吗?用其它牌子的纸有什么不同吗?”

Aunty's daughter glares at me and says


For all those who are sec 3 now, does what type of foolscap paper you use determine the quality of essays you write? It's not as if an unknown brand of foolscap will definately give you crap essays. During your PSLE or O'Levels you wouldn't even know what freaking brand of paper they provide for you. I think some parents go way too far to ensure that their child obtains good results. I think this is just a tip of the iceberg. I'm sure there are even parents who discuss about what brand of correction tape or liquid paper, what brand of mechanical pencil or pencil lead, or even worse, what brand of STAPLES is better for exams. What is the world coming to nowadays? I bet those great authors could even write a bestseller on toilet paper if they want while some who did not put any effort in improving their essays couldn't even pass their Paper 1 even if they write on freaking Gold Foil or something.

It's not about what your write on, it's about your abilities in writing. Abilties and not material.

Random 2:

I'm really excited about my trip to Shanghai. There were more than 50 people who attended the briefing today. I even spotted my Primary school friend. The world is getting smaller. Fudan University... It's gonna be a once-in-a-lifetime opportunity for me to participate in a program like this. I will definately learn a many things, take many photos and buy many things! It's just two more weeks!

Random 3:

I sprained my finger during training and now it's swelling and it kinda hurts. It would definately affect my performance in further trainings so I hope that it would recover soon. I need to train to play next year and right now, there are definately loads of stuff that I need to catch up. Like my catching and tackling.

More random stuff:

I'm in love with Assasin's Creed, Call Of Duty: World At War, Prince of Persia 08 amd Devil May Cry 4. In a perfect world, I wanna buy ALL. In my case, I can buy... None. I'm hoping I can get Assasin's Creed from Yustynn later. It looks like a really cool and realistic game

I need to train my B-boy. It's been so long since I tried to break. I'm not giving it up, or else my blisters will not be worth it.

Time flies......

Thursday, October 23, 2008


Exams are over, results stinked, percentage sucks, what else? What else is unexpected? Holidays gone, need to catch up work, training (it's not a burden but a difficulty for me now, there's fierce competition within the team as I need to ensure that I keep my original position). This is totally fucked up. So what can I do? Just gotta take a deep breath and continue.

Wednesday, October 15, 2008

Video Post

Lately I have absolutely no idea on what to blog about. Here's a few video posts to lighten up your day.

Warning: May Contain Vulgarities

Part 1

Part 2

Video No. 2

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

What Now?

Last day of my 5-day break from Final- Year Exams. Was it relaxing? No. Was it fun? Not really. Do you want more days off? Hell yes. Throughout this period of time I've been constantly reminded about my results. Shitz.... D-Day tomorrow.. again. Though I can't do anything about it, it still bugs me. Why oh why do I have to feel this way. Shit. It happens almost every single bloody time after the exams. It's driving me nuts.

Anyway, I've decided to add some celeb blog links to this site just in case some of your are curious to check it out. Though there's a few, but they'll grow in time.

Monday, October 13, 2008


I'm Hot Shot crazy right now.... Haha. This post consists of some videos about 2 of my favourite characters in Hot Shot. I really want Da Ying will accept W instead of breaking his heart ove Jie'er. There's no need to cause unecessary pain to yourself, right? Anyway, the videos below consists of all, if not almost all the scenes between Da Ying and W. They would make a really good couple on screen. Check it out. The show's really funny too. Thanks to the person who compiled everything.

Part 1:

Part 2:

Part 3:

Part 4:

Part 5:

Part 6:

Part 7:

Part 8:

Part 9:

Part 10:

Sunday, October 12, 2008


Damn I love "Hot Shot". I totally love the drama. It's funny and the matches are kinda cool to watch and the story is not some damn mundane love story either. It was then I realised that I'm addicted to this show. Like seriously I could watch the damn thing all day. I'm still on episode 9 though. But here's one thing I observed about Taiwanese Drama now.

I think that those scripwriters really know how to play with the minds of teenagers. You know, they would get like one really beautiful gal and one not-so-good-looking-but-still-ok gal to be in the show. Then they will create this sorta Love Polygon (Triangle is a way too simple word to describe this). It's kinda like... You want Girl X to date Main Character but main character likes Girl Y, and Girl Y likes another dude. Everytime you're like "Damn..... Main Character sucks". Da Ying should really be with W, they would make a really good couple.

Now my face is literally glued to the computer screen watching whether she and Luo Zhi Xiang can get together in the end. Then I won't be like... swearing at the screen. Haha. I guess too much studying makes you go nuts. Anyway, I'll finish the series and I will go on to reading my "Breaking Dawn". And then I will spent the remaining days of my holiday praying that I won't die of my horrible results.

Friday, October 10, 2008


Damn exams are over. Now I can finally start playing like mad. I've been watching this Taiwan Drama called "Hot Shot" or "篮球火".

Starring Show Luo, Jerry Yan, Wu Chun, it tells a story about.... well... it's kinda long anyway, but it involves people playing basketball, and loads of cool basketball moves which looks kinda fake. Anyway, i would still recommend you all to watch it because:

For the girls, this stars 3 hunks which would make you wanna scream out loud....

And for the guys.... well, there are girls in the play that makes you.........

Wanna scream too. Haha. Just kiddin. But there's one who is really gorgeous.

The actress in blue. She stars in the series as the coach of the basketball team. Her background in the drama is a person who was an NBA Consultant nicknamed "W". She's damn pro in analyzing the player's abilities and potential. Damn I want a coach like her. That way we can all play the sport better. Haha. Check her blog out to get a better view, guys. I got the link from Wikipedia.

I bet some of you are gonna call me pervert or something, but hey, what will your reaction be when you see a human Edward Cullen or Rosalie Hale standing in front of you? I'm not saying that the actress is, though. But you get the point.

Saturday, October 4, 2008


I'm busy mugging.... Just wanna post a pic here.

After 2 months of trying, here is the finished product. I do have better ones, but this was taken with a digital camera so it's faster to upload.

Friday, September 19, 2008

Random Stuff

Today I opened my Amath Textbook and found out that everytime I look at a question I feel damn frustrated and tired. I'm honestly sick and tired of lessons. There are teachers who are rushing to complete the syllabus before the final years come. So alot of lessons are like mass-absorbing sessions which seriously kills your brain cell. Firstly, Mrs Tan has been literally shoving math formulas in our head, Mr Chen shoving Chem topics, Relief teachers shoving Bio topics and lots of shoving involved. I realised that I don't even have the mood to sit down and do my revision anymore. I hope I really don't burnout. If I really did, it would be big freaking trouble for me. I'm even skeptical about praying. That's how darn messed up I feel right now.

Anyway, let's set this topic aside. I went breaking with Selva and Matthias today. It was a depressing day for me. Though I can do the Nike now, my toprock and uprock sucks totally and big time. If I continued like that I will get my butt owned at any battle. Practise with music. That's what I'm going to do after exams. I wanna at least survive the battle without me pausing to think of what crap I should do next. At least I learnt something crucial about break-dancing. I also managed to learn the Forearm Nike today and I'm currently practising CC's to Baby Freeze. Breakdancing is really a damn fun thing but damn tiring thing to do, but I'm not gonna give up.

The next post is about a story which I'm going to write based on the song "The Man Who Can't Be Moved" by The Script. Please don't flame me if it stinks.

Friday, September 5, 2008

I Can't Stop The Rain, But I Will Hold You Till It Goes Away

I just finished my weekly target for my studies yesterday at Bishan Library. It's a gruelling process with endless hours put in over stuff like "Why there are less trees in Kalimantan" and finding the area of sectors, blah blah blah. Mugging stinks, but fortunately I've completed what I'm supposed to do for this week. So here I am, blogging. Take this moment to enjoy a song which I've been listening to lately. It's a song called "When The Rain Comes" by Third Day.

Thursday, September 4, 2008

What Did I Ever Do In My Past Life?

There is a new meaning and definition of the word "Holidays". Holidays are days where you mug and mug your asses off without going to school. Holidays are also known as "home schooling" sessions where you face your greatest enemies and fears. No, they're not monsters under your bed or dark wizards carrying wands, and they're not people carrying Ak-47 and RPGs.

This new breed of enemies, that is even more dangerous than the Al-Qaeda, is something labelled as "O' Level Additional Mathematics", "O-Level Physics", basically everything to do with "O-Levels" and "Sec 3". Mrs Tan once encouraged us to stay away from video games as she claimed that some of them would lead to "violent thoughts and behaviours of teens". Well, if her theory is CORRECT, why is it that I feel like banging my head against the wall everytime I stare at my AMath Textbook? Why do I feel like throwing all my homework out of the dang window, or even better still, burn them and laugh while they are reduced to nothing but ashes.

My conclusion? Homework is something more deadly than violent video games. Why? Look at it this way:

When you do your darn homework, you get frustrated.

When you get frustrated, anger builds up inside you.

When anger builds up inside you, you tend to go beserk and crazy.

When you go berserk and crazy, you would want to release or vent your anger.

When you want to release all the rage inside you, you tend to play violent video games, as you know, when you shoot all your darn enemies in the head or blow them up into pieces with your claymores and grenades, you imagine that the enemies are your teachers and it feels good to take revenge because of all the darn work they gave you.

When you play violent video games, this in turn leads to violent behaviours and thoughts.

And so the cycle repeats itself. Homework is the origin of all these behaviour, in my opinion. That's why most of the most brilliant minds on earth are so-called "bonkers".

Well, I guess at the end of the day, as much as I want to throw away my homework, I still have to face it because that's the only thing that's gonna get me a piece of paper called a "degree" which in turn gets me a "J-O-B". Mundane stuff, but hey we all gotta eat.

Saturday, August 30, 2008

Video Post

I won't post about my crappy results, since there is nothing else I can say about it. All I will do is to study harder than before. It's my only way out. Lately I have been learning some dance moves and some guitar solos. I will share the videos with all of you who is reading my blog. Share the love y'all.

1st one is a tutorial to the sick and awesome kickup/rewind from Step Up 2. Sorry the video can't be embed. I'll give you the link. It's a really awesome move to include in dancing.

The second one is a guitar solo called "Innocent" by Joe Hisashi. It was the theme song for "Laputa- Castle In The Sky" directed by Hayao Miyazaki. Great theme song from an even better anime. I'm trying to learn this song. Not too difficult but still needs practice. Oh, a guitar update. I've just passed my Grade 3 ABRSM exam. Which means I'm certified Grade 3 now. Kinda obvious isn't it. It was really a happy moment for me. 2 more grades to a new guitar. Check out the beautiful solo here.

The third one is from one of my favourite dance crew, is the Korean crew called Gamblerz. Check out their dance and you will know why they kick ass.

Of course, the only contender I think can match Gamblerz is....


I hope I can dance like them... although that will never happen in a million years. Still, I enjoy watching their videos again and again. They're just so dang good that their dance looks just like what they say about their crew. "A Figment Of Your Imagination"

This is a deleted scene from Step Up 2:

From the "Monsters Of Hip-Hop" show in LA 2008:

Hope you enjoy the Videos! Ciaoz!!

Friday, August 22, 2008

Nothing Can Explain the Grief in My Heart

After 5 days of jungle and away from civillization, I'm glad to say that I have came back from OBS in one piece. Alright maybe not one piece but still alive. I guess that OBS is a place where I will bring back loads of fond memories despite living in harsh conditions with a devil wearing sneakers. Yes, the devil's name is called Bernard. Said he was a Lieutenant in the Army before. He is very strict, but he's a great guy who knows how to handle a bunch of low-morale people with little motivation.

I shall not do what I did the last time where I have to do an ultra long post. Instead, I would just briefly summarise the highlights of the camp. I'm sure most of you are tired of reading my posts which is long enough to stretch from the start to beyond the tagboard.

One thing I've learnt in OBS was to challenge myself. I realized that my limit is way beyond what I think it is. For example, we had to do a more than 8km Land Expedition which covers one end of Pulau Ubin to the other with bags weighing at least 15-20kg. We walked from 9am-5:40pm and were the last group to reach the campsite. I'll elaborate on that point later. My shoulders were aching, and both my backside and my inner thigh areas has serious abrasions. It hurts so much that I couldn't even walk like a normal person. I had to crab-walk for that night and I was covered with mosquito bites, sandfly bites, ant bites, and some other insect bites all over my leg and arms. Thank goodness that the campsite was near the beach and it was windy and comfortable at night.

Sea Expedition was next on our list. We had to kayak from our campsite to Chek Jawa, go around it to opposite Johor and finally back to our base camp. It was the most gruelling expedition ever. Kayaking in the sea was a very difficult thing as you are strained mentally when you think that you covered a great distance until you see another great stretch of water. We had to kayak through 2 storms. It was at that point of time that I started singing to take my mind of physical pain and to lift my morale. It actually worked and I felt so dang energized that I told Daniel who is the front man to stop rowing and I started rowing the two-man kayak by myself. Exciting stuff. We managed to reach the camp in just 5 hours and we saw a rainbow after the storm. It was really beautiful.

Besides that, we got a chance to stay up a hill near Camp 1, which is the nicest OBS base camp ever with the most high-class facilities. The Inverse Tower, which is the high elements activity. I must mention here that I have a fear of heights. So when I first cleared the rock wall my legs were shaking with fear because everyone looked so small there. I had to wait for my friend afterwards as we were supposed to go up together. I waited there for more than 10 minutes and gotten used to the altitude. Later I had to climb up the tyres up to the rope ladder. The ropes strained every inch of my muscles but my friend was still below. I told my belayer to let me down so that I can teach him how to climb up the tyres which was really shaky. Well, he couldn't complete the challenge and I went up alone. It was uber fun.

I want to thank Bernard our instructor for teaching us many things a being there as a friend and mentor for us. This post is titled with your favourite quote which you always say whenever you see us. Although we have endured hell from you for the first 3 days, you moulded us into a team that was stronger and more efficient than everyone else.

I also want to thank our team members which includes (Not in any order):

Yohanes Lim
Tim Tan
Zhi Hao
Yohanes Augustine
Dao Han
Zi Ran

Thanks for making this camp interesting and funny. It is because of us that Columbus is unique.

I came to OBS wanting to leave, and left OBS with something that will stay with me forever.

To Serve, To Strive and Not To Yield!

Sunday, August 17, 2008

Blisters on My Feet

I said I would post pictures of a better nike than the previous one. So here I am. It's still not very good, but I think it's much better than the previous one I did.

Although my body is still not fully turned, At least the position of my legs are a little better. Check out the other one:

My left hand is in a really strange place. But I think this is a nice one too.

Practising Nike Freeze has left me with blisters on my leg. It hurts like hell everytime I do it. Arghh... Maybe I should stop for awhile and practise my footworks. Hopefully one day my Nike Freeze would be as good as Selva. I got this picture off Matthias's facebook. Here it is:

Anyway, OBS on monday. Should be fun considering I need a break after the stupid common tests. I have trouble packing. My bag is going to burst anytime, and I still have to make room for a pair of sandals, sports shoes, trash bags, and toiletries. This is the part where I dislike camping. The packing sucks. Furthermore, I still have to wake up dang early tomorrow and head to punggol jetty. PUNGGOL. I stay in Queenstown. That is so freaking far. Nevermind, when Life gives you lemons, you suck it. Haha. Looking forward to see all of you in OBS tomorrow!

Friday, August 15, 2008


Just when I thought I would get some slack, I'm wrong. OBS Singapore next week. Five days of outdoor activity. I'm not sure I'm really excited about it. The enthusiasm about things have been disappearing recently. Not good... Anyway, I only got my AMath result today. 1/2 more mark to A1. It's a good improvement since Mid year when I only got 50 something. Furthermore, I studied that dang subject all by myself. No need for tuition, no need to go through the trouble of having one "trial lesson" after another. Honestly I'm sick and tired of it. Loads of practising really helped. Hope that other subjects can compensate for my EMath which is a confirm GG gone case. 10+ marks gone.

I'm learning some footworks for my breakdance now. I only know the 6-step and the 4-step, combined with some random stuff that I add in along the way. I hope my nike freeze is better than the last time, I have been trying and trying and trying, and viewing tutorial videos until I got sick of it. I hope to break with Selva and Matthias next time if I have the chance. Esplanade looks like a good place to practise. Arghh I need more muscle to do all those moves.... Training time!

Sunday, August 10, 2008

Exam Fever

Mugging, Mugging, Mugging. It's driving me up the wall. The only thing I would be looking forward to is my B'day next Saturday. although mom and dad had already gave me my early B'day present, The MotoKrzr. Cool phone with a really small screen. Haha. Love it. At least it has bluetooth as compared to my 2.5 year old Nokia 6020. Before I leave to continue with my mugging I shall entertain you all with my attempt at Nike. Here it goes:

My face looks really screwed. Arghh I need some professional help for my Nike... It's driving me crazeh. The passion for learning has met with strong resistance.... Shoot. Wish me luck for the upcoming Common Tests next week. Ciao.

Saturday, August 2, 2008

Happy 100th Post

Happy 100th post blog. It's the first time my blog ever reached 100 posts. My previous one was about 50+ or 60+, but I deleted it because I felt confused and my blog was full of shit and vulgarities. Dark times, those were. And I never want to look back at it again. Not one single bit of it.

Anyway, life's been really busy right now. Exam is two weeks later, and thankfully my B'day falls on a saturday 16/08/08 instead of a wednesday where I usually have exams on that day. This gives me more time to celebrate it instead of mugging my butt off at home. I tried to de-stress on friday by playing soccer and touch rugby all afternoon on friday. Was quite tiring and relaxing even though I sucked at soccer. But it was a surprise though that I realised that I can do half a nike. Only half. Selva said it looked kinda like one. I have half a nike more to learn. Haha. Difficult stuff. It's hard to balance on one hand while your feet is in a "nike" shape. Gotta practise more handstands and two-handed nikes before going on a one-handed one. Meanwhile I'll just practise how to do swipes.

Alright... back to mugging. Update you all later.

Thursday, July 31, 2008


I've been tagged by Liyi to do this. This is the first time I'm doing quizzes like this.

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by them.

B) Tag eight people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. What are your reasons for having a LJ?

I have a blog because I want to use this blog as a place where I am free to say whatever I want to say. It is also a place where I can see my growing up as a person when I read my archives. Besides all the basic textbook answers, I have a blog because I feel like it.

2. What do you do before bed time?

Shower, Read a book.

3. What would your dream wedding be like?

That's a difficult question. Actually I want my dream wedding to be held in a place near the sea during sunrise. It should be a good time to exchange vows under the beauty of nature with the heavens as your witness.

4. What is the city of your dreams and why?

Copenhagen. Definately Copenhagen. I love the lifestyle and the whole city architecture. It's a place where everything is not as fast-paced as Singapore, and the breathtaking views complimented by the small cottages and canals makes your body feels very relaxed. I still miss that place after my last visit in P6

5. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

I'm more of an introvert I guess. There are somethings which I usually keep to myself despite me talking alot and trying to socialize with the people around me.

6. Which is more blessed; being loved or to love someone?

I have to say being loved feels blessed because you know that there is someone out there who can accept you for the way you are and also the fact that you can be her keeper and someone whom they trust to even tell them their secrets. Loving someone isn't really blessed as it sucks to know that the someone whom you love does not appreciate that.

7. Do you trust easily?

Definately. I trust people too easily.

8. What person, dead or alive, is your role model?

Role model? I don't really have one, surprisingly. My role model is values and principles and optimism.

9. Is there anything that has been making you unhappy recently?

Yes. Freaking TA3

10. When's the last time you had fun?

Kindred Spirits Concert. I got so bored by school life that this one little concert make me wake up at 3am in the morning due to adrenaline.

11. Is being tagged fun?

Yeah. It's nice to know that you're on someone's mind and they decide to tag you.

12. How do you see yourself?

Me? I see myself as someone who always have room for improvement.

13. Who are currently, the most important people to you?

My parents, relatives, friends.

14. What kind of person, do you think the person who tagged you is?

Someone who is a very good friend of mine. Somone who erm... stuck with me and didn't just fade away.

15. Would you rather be rich but single? or poor but married?

Poor but married. I would rather live in happiness than die of loneliness. Actually I would take option 3 though. I want to be rich AND married.

16. How many children would you want to have, if any?

Two. I want my kids to know the importance of sharing.

17. What's better? To give or to receive?

I would say to give. Although giving stinks, it makes you feel happy to know that you've brightened up someone else's life. In the process you receive something as well.

18. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?

Whoa, hard question. I would think about that for a very long time.... But usually I would fall in love with one person only.

19. What would you do if you (or your girlfriend) became pregnant unexpectedly?

What can I do but to marry her? Although in situations like these my thoughts would be another option. I hope that will not happen.

20. What are you waiting for right now?

Time to pass and waiting for sleeping time and mugging session tomorrow.

8 people? Allright.

1. Michael
2. Glen
3. Hillary
4. Saiful
5. Lizzi
6. Edmund
7. Joshua
8. Eugene

Sunday, July 27, 2008

ZB Sports Day

Well, I just came back from Zabao SSC Sports Day. It was a freaking exhausting day, albeit a fun one. We had to play a total of:

3 matches of handball
3 matches of basketball
3 matches of street soccer
3 mathces of frisbee

That's a total of 12 matches in 10 hours. Trust me, the matches are all dang exhausting as majority of the other team members go all out, even if its a game of frisbee. It was physically exhausting, but I still managed to endure the 10-hour exercise with only an hour or so's break. No cramps or muscle aches yet, but rest assured all these will come when I wake up tomorrow. I will be walking to school while limping on one leg, clutching my thighs as if someone hit my *ahem*. However, it was all worth it as I tried my best. The results were quite satisfactory though:

I scored a goal in street soccer. I would just like to make it a point that I have not been seriously playting that sport for three years now. The fact that I can still do so impresses me. Haha. I also scored more than 5 goals in handball. Handball is actually a very difficult sport to play as it is very difficult to score. Your objective is to throw the ball between the goalposts. Since the ball is really small, you can't really throw with that much force. I managed to score more than 5 I think.

Even though we got last this year, it was still fun nevertheless as we all stuck together as a team. Thanks to Xuchang, Muquan and Hanjie for scoring majority of the goals in street soccer, Iris, Felicia, Jieling (not sure of spelling) for playing like all stars during the basketball match, and Tongyao, Yingying, Liyun, Lixue, Aonan for giving their best during every one of the matches. Majority of my shots would never had made it without all of you, thanks alot for the encouragement. Xulong Rockz!

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Lord, What Fools These Mortals Be!

I simply love Midsummer Night's Dream. Although it is written in an english so old that some words don't appear in dictionaries anymore, it is still one of my favourite book. Probably because of the fact that the whole book is based on the theme of love, relationships and the "Dream-Reality" concept. I'll just give the sypnosis of the story adapted from Wikipedia:

The play features three interlocking plots, connected by a celebration of the wedding of Duke Theseus of Athens and the Amazonian queen Hippolyta, and set simultaneously in the woodland, and in the realm of Fairyland, under the light of the moon.[2]

In the opening scene, Hermia refuses to comply with her father Egeus's wish for her to marry his chosen man, Demetrius. In response, Egeus quotes before Theseus an ancient Athenian law whereby a daughter must marry the suitor chosen by her father, or else face death. Theseus does not want this young girl to die, and offers her another choice, lifelong chastity worshipping Diana as a nun. (The word 'nun' in this sense is an anachronism.)

Hermia and her lover Lysander decide to elope by escaping through the forest at night. Hermia informs her best friend Helena, but Helena has recently been rejected by Demetrius and decides to win back his favour by revealing the plan to him. Demetrius, followed doggedly by Helena, chases Hermia. Hermia and Lysander, believing themselves safely out of reach, sleep in the woods.

Meanwhile, Oberon, king of the fairies, and his queen, Titania, arrive in the forest outside Athens. Titania tells Oberon that she plans to stay there until after she has attended Theseus and Hippolyta's wedding. Oberon and Titania are estranged because Titania refuses to give her Indian changeling to Oberon for use as his "knight" or "henchman," since the child's mother was one of Titania's worshippers. Oberon seeks to punish Titania's disobedience and recruits the mischievous Puck (also called Hobgoblin and Robin Goodfellow) to help him apply a magical juice from a flower called "love-in-idleness" (a.k.a. pansy), which makes the victim fall in love with the first living thing seen upon awakening. He instructs Puck to retrieve the flower so that he can make Titania fall in love with some vile creature of the forest. Oberon applies the juice to Titania in order to distract her and force her to give up the page-boy.

Having seen Demetrius act cruelly toward Helena, Oberon orders Puck to spread some of the elixir on the eyelids of the young Athenian man. Instead, Puck accidentally puts the juice on the eyes of Lysander, who then falls in love with Helena. Oberon sees Demetrius still following Hermia and is enraged. When Demetrius decides to go to sleep, Oberon sends Puck to get Helena while he charms Demetrius' eyes. Due to Puck's errors, both lovers now fight over Helena instead of Hermia. Helena, however, is convinced that her two suitors are mocking her, as neither loved her originally. The four pursue and quarrel with each other most of the night, until they become so enraged that they seek a place to duel each other to the death to settle the quarrel. Oberon orders Puck to keep the lovers from catching up with one another in the forest and to re-charm Lysander for Hermia, to prevent them all from killing each other.

Meanwhile, a band of lower-class labourers ("rude mechanicals", as they are famously described by Puck) have arranged to perform a crude play about Pyramus and Thisbe for Theseus' wedding, and venture into the forest, near Titania's bower, for their rehearsal. Nick Bottom, a stage-struck weaver, is spotted by Puck, who transforms his head into that of an ass (donkey). Titania is awakened by Bottom's singing and immediately falls in love with him. She treats him like a nobleman and lavishes him with attention. While in this state of devotion, she encounters Oberon and casually gives him the Indian boy. Having achieved his goals, Oberon releases Titania and orders Puck to remove the ass's head from Bottom. The magical enchantment is removed from Lysander but is allowed to remain on Demetrius, so that he may reciprocate Helena's love.

The fairies then disappear, and Theseus and Hippolyta arrive on the scene, during an early morning hunt. They wake the lovers and, since Demetrius doesn't love Hermia anymore, Theseus over-rules Egeus's demands and arranges a group wedding. The lovers decide that the night's events must have been a dream. After they all exit, Bottom awakes, and he too decides that he must have experienced a dream "past the wit of man." In Athens, Theseus, Hippolyta and the lovers watch the mechanicals perform "Pyramus and Thisbe." It is ridiculous and badly performed but gives everyone pleasure regardless, and afterward everyone retires to bed. Finally, as night falls, Oberon and Titania bless the house, its occupants, and the future children of the newlyweds, and Puck delivers a soliloquy to the audience.

Shakespeare explains a key concept of love which struck me. In the play, where Demetrius is still under the effects of the love potion while everything goes back to normal again. He said "Are you sure we are awake? It seems to me that yet we sleep, we dream". Think about it. Isn't love like a dream to you? When you are in love, nothing else matters except the one you love. I had similar feelings like that. Nothing, not even your best friend mattered to you. You're living in a world of your own, a world where you and whoever you love are the only residents there. It feels fantastic. It's a great feeling to love and be loved.

However, when that someone breaks up with you or you decide that you don't love that someone anymore, it brings you back to reality. And you come down crashing. Hard. Suddenly you're back in a world where everything seemed so crystal clear to you again. Don't believe me, think about what I've written when you're in a relationship and if it falls apart (Hopefully not), after the relationship. Then when you fall back in love again, the whole process repeats itself.

The amazing thing is, MSND is timeless. It does not just wear away with time. What Shakespeare wrote still happens in our lives. I don't know how Shakespeare does it, but what he wrote shocked me, despite it being simple quotes such as:

"Love is perjured everywhere"

"Love looks not with the eye but with the mind"

"Love is said to be a child, because in choices he is so oft beguiled"

"The course of true love never did run smooth"

A few hundred years down the road, all of these which I mentioned still revolves around our lives. People change throughout the ages, I think, but these priniciples and points of view still stands. All these questions and themes about Love intrigues me everytime I read it. Love is such a mysterious thing, and we humans often tend to fall deep into her traps. If only I can put all of these into my lit essays. It would do soooo much help.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Kindred Spirits!


Well, what can I say? Kindred Spirits will be one of the most memorable concerts I have ever been to. The performance was awesome, there were surprises, there were moments where you wish they would have an encore performance and there were moments that you wish that time would freeze at that particular moment. The emcees were brilliant and funny, with Emu, Mahdi and all. The dance crew that performed had so much energy, especially the breakers. I felt damn jealous as I'm also trying to learn but I'm still at the basics. It would take a really long time before I can do all those freezes and stuff.

Sat with Max during the first half of the show as I was late and I almost sat beside this old lady before Max called me. Saw TY, Brij, Karthik and Shant and other familiar faces. Oh yeah, the CHIJ dance was sexy. Really sexy. Those dancers are freaking flexible and I realized that my mouth was half open after their item. Haha. Met up with Samantha, Lizzi and Peter during the interval and sat with them on the 2nd level.

The performance during the 2nd half was not as good as the first half, but I had loads of surprises. Firstly, I didn't know that my RME teacher can sing pretty well and my HOL is a guitar god. Haha. Jerome's singing is fantastic but the other band's performance was a little bit boring. The concert ended on a high note and I was pretty much high from the concert and the people whom I met there.

It's been a really busy week with me studying for common tests and stuff, I was doing Geometric Properties of Circles until I went crazy and wanted to just throw my freaking math textbook out the window. I'm not really good at Geometry as it's this topic where you have to really stare at the diagram until you get sick of it. And DT said that video games make teenagers violent... Wait till I really go bonkers during her math class and start throwing calculators around. Studied Geography and Biology this week too. Sigh... I hate the new timetable. You have no breaks/ slack lessons from wednesday to friday. Why can't we have a 10 minute break after every 50 minutes of lessons just like St Paul's in HK?

Thank god there is the concert to help me relax. In fact, this concert got me so hyped that I couldn't sleep well at night. I woke up at three a.m with a million thoughts in my head. This shows that school is really taking its toll on me. And on one of the million thoughts that appeared in my mind was this girl, one whom I met during the concert. I shouldn't name who, but you know my heart was beating like crazy when I saw her. I'm not sure what to do, or what I can do. However, I know that something must be done because it stinks to feel this way. As much as I want to date a girl, there's always this voice inside of me that says "Study first" or "What is it that you have which will make someone fall in love with you? Better learn something that will impress the girls first". All these thoughts are rushing through my head and I don't know what to do. You try to ignore it but it just keeps coming back.

I'll end this post with something good that happened to me this week. I actually got level 10 for my HSK exam. I can even go to this top university in Shanghai for 10 days with the other top scorers. The expenses are all paid except for the tickets. Big bonus for me. The highest level that someone can get is level 11. Furthermore, this exam is taken back to Beijing for marking and the results are then emailed back to Singapore. With this certificate, I can become a primary school chinese teacher. Lolz. Anyway, I'm really satisfied with my results and this is a booster for me to study even harder.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Labour Amouris

Labour Amouris rocks! I must admit that the SJI guitar ensemble kicks ass after two years. The songs there were beautiful. I love every single bit of it. It was a shame that majority of the sec 3s didn't go. Only me, Paolo and Paolo's friend attended. Jason was the host with some chio bu on stage. Lucky dude... Haha. Anyway I screamed encore until my voice turned sore. The SJI Alumni duo was particularly excellent. This was the song they played. and they played almost exactly like the video, except with classical guitars.

This song is called "Start" by the Japanese Duo called Depapepe. Excellent song. Loved it every single bit. Oh yeah, I also loved the performance by the SJI Senior Ensemble, especially the "El Cumbanchero". And I saw my guitar teacher conducting the IJTP Guitar Ensemble band! Mr Shi the Playmaker! Hahaa!

This will be the last time I will be watching Labour Amouris as it is only held once every two years. However, this concert is one of the most memorable ones I've watched. SJI, CJC and IJTP Guitar Ensemble left a deep impression on me. You all rock!

Friday, July 11, 2008

Stuff That's Been Happening

I'm glad that this week is over. It marks the end of my Mother Tongue O'Levels exam and my ABRSM Grade 3 Guitar Exam too. It's been stressful this week with the physics MYAA and Math Project. Andreas couldn't finish the final part of the project so I had to complete the rest. And there were loads to do, because most of my group member's research were not too user-friendly. I had to tell them to re-submit and I had to summarise everything and complete the project in 90 minutes. I managed to do it, although I'm not too optimistic about the marks as I did it in a rush. Anyway, one major thing cleared off my list.

Second thing was the O'Levels Mother Tongue Oral Examinations. It's a strictly no-play, 100% serious attitude and focus as I only get one chance. One single chance. My heart was beating really fast before the exam, as I thought that I was really unprepared for it. I was the last guy to take the exam, but fortunately and by God's Grace, I did not have really long pauses like the practises I had with Mr Lee and I sounded quite confident. Although I will never know the results of my O'Level Oral Marks, I hope for the best. Another thing off my list.

Thirdly, there was my ABRSM Guitar Exam. London-based music exam which is really important to me as firstly, I paid alot for the exams and furthermore, I won't get a second chance again I think. However, I was freaking nervous and my fingers felt numb. That's why I made some mistakes in the playing part and the scales part. I made some mistakes on the Aural Part too. Oh shoot.... I seriously hope that I can pass my exam. Then I'm one step closer to a new guitar, and I can move on to higher grades. I seriously love my Maestro E-1 and guitar. All I can do is hope for the best for the results.

Well, that was quite a hectic week isn't it? It's not over yet. I still got loads to catch up on my studies. "Light and Heat" topic on Physics, "Ionic And Covalent Bonding" for chemistry, "Trigonometry and Revision of Angle Properties of Circles" for Math as I really stink in Geometry. I feel frustrated by just staring at the circles. Every week is busy for me. Even the next week's busy as well. No wonder Mr Chin said that this is a busy term. How right he was. And I have to host students from Suzhou, China for 4 days as part of my exchange program. They're coming this sunday. Thank goodness that it's 4 days only.

However, life do has its pleasant surprise for me. Firstly, we got a new English teacher whose name I shall not mention since I know that SJI teachers actually DO check blogs related to school and I don't want them to accidentally "bump" into this one. All I can say that I love english now. Insiders should know what I mean. Secondly, this really fierce teacher actually said something good about me in her form class. You know, her voice is really cold, and it sends shivers up my spine. You know, I'm ok with people yelling and shouting at us, but her voice reminds me of a cold-blooded creature. So that was quite encouraging.

In order to relax and enjoy myself, I'm going to replace PC games with exercise and music. Furthermore, I've found a even better source of exercise and entertainment. I'm trying to learn how to Breakdance. I realised that it's a very good form of exercise and you learn really cool stuff as well. I'm going to become a B-Boy in training soon. I learn all my stuff from the internet, but I have to do some personal training as well to execute some of their moves. Hopefully I can be able to do a Nike and Freezes in 2-3 months. Look out for that! Haha.

Monday, July 7, 2008


How many times in life, or how often, do you come face to face with a crossroad in life? A crossroad which forces you to make difficult choices, for you to disappoint some people whom trusted you the most again and again, in order to pull you through personal challenges? How many times are you asked to/ forced to give up on the team just to fufill your personal achievements? ABRSM Guitar Grade 3 is important, as there won't be a second time. O Level Mother Tongue Oral is important, as there won't be a second time. Match on Wednesday is also important, as I cannot imagine the level of trust between me and the team now since I missed almost every training. If I missed that too, I can't imagine what's going to happen.

At this point of time I guess we all have to choose. It's a very difficult choice to make for me, although some of you may see the answer straight away. Coincidence? Not really, since it happened more than once. Stressed? Completely. God I just want to make it through this week. Try to make me add colours to my own life and paint my canvas of gray with colours brighter than anyone else's. Give me strength for my O Level Mother Tongue Oral, and also for the match tomorrow. I must admit that I've lost loads of my rugby skills and confidence, but I'm going to get it back. Bit by bit. It's a tough road, but I just need Your help in this journey. Amen.

I'll make it through this week. I'm sure I will.

Sunday, July 6, 2008

Angel In Disguise

Angel In Disguise

by Corrinne May

album: Safe in a Crazy World (2005)

I woke up this morning feeling kind of blue
and I stumbled out of bed and
dragged my feet across the room
Right outside my front door was a rose
and a note that said 'Somebody Loves You'
Oh~ But out on the street it starts to pour
and before I get soaking wet,
A total stranger runs to give me
the jacket off his back
I turn around to thank him
But he waves me with a smile
And I can hardly believe my eyes
He puts on a halo and starts to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
I met a good friend for lunch
and we had a delicious meal
But I forgot to bring my wallet
I felt like an imbecile
But she was sweet, she gave me a treat and
Bought me a chicken sandwich
To take home for tea
Oh~ But out on the street with nothing to eat
A man and his shopping cart go
Travelling to places
Collecting social graces
I give him my sandwich
and we chatter for a while
I see a rainbow wash over his eyes
He gives me his halo and
I start to fly
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look for Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Don't try to hide away from me
I know you're by my side
Take a look at the ordinary
Don't need to look at Paradise
You could be next to
an angel in disguise
Everyday can be legendary
Every minute, an endless surprise
You could be the next angel in disguise
I woke up this morning
Feeling kind of new

Perhaps.... That I've been trying my best to give halos to others and make them fly that I forget that sometimes, I too, need halos when I feel blue. Perhaps.. I should try to notice and be more observant, and spot all these Angels in Disguise around me, waiting for me to reach out to them and for them to reach out to me too.

Saturday, July 5, 2008


I once promised myself:

"Never Hesitate To Reach Out To People in Need, just because you're afraid to be different".

So far I have done that, but there's a burning question inside me.

"When you're in need, who's gonna reach out to you?"

Although the place I go to is considered a third home for me, I just feel so left out inside. I may appear unfriendly and cold towards you, but did you ever think that I stay away because I'm afraid of the fact that I can't fit in? Have you ever thought that I appear anti-social just because I don't know the correct way to communicate, that's why I often say things which don't make sense or don't speak at all.

I may leave early everytime, but everytime I leave early something inside me hurts. I wanna stay, but even if I did, I'll be some spectator. I want to reach out to others, but who's gonna reach out to me when I felt that being me is so tiring?

It's hard that in school some people try to screw around with your life and yet you do not screw up theirs. It's even harder that you have to bear it all alone. Maybe I'm too enthusiatic about everything, but please, do not kill off my enthusiasm because killing that means you're draining away the love and energy inside a person.

Sometimes my intentions are good. It's just the way I present it stinks. I really hope that someone out there can understand that.